I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember. I rededicated my life when I was in junior high. After that, things like worship and praying took on new life for me. As I got older, I went through seasons where I felt like God was there with me tangibly, as thick as an Oklahoma downpour. Other times, I felt separated and dry. But, God has always been good to me and my family. We've seen our share of trials and mistakes. God has always looked out for us both in the physical AND the supernatural.
One thing you should know...I've experienced a spiritual awareness from a very young age. I saw demons as early as age 4 or 5. My mother taught me not to fear, but to pray. That worked for a long time, until adulthood. I then began to experience spiritual warfare in a way that involved my husband and our kids. Around this time, Sam offered his class on Spiritual Warfare. (This needs to be offered again, btw...) I learned to not just ask God for protection, but to expect it. I also learned that what I was experiencing was a trespass on God's territory. I learned to stand up for myself in prayer, out loud (sometimes very loud). Life has not been the same since. No more touches, no more nightmares.
We started attending the Taylors' community group last fall. It has been full steam ahead ever since. We have seen spiritual release and healing. There is an outpouring of God's spirit on this beautiful group, as well as our entire Church body. When Bob and Felicia gave their words
from God at the Worship Night, I felt like a live wire. Everything in me was screaming, "Yes! That's exactly right! Yes! That's what I've been feeling!!!" That night, I received prayer from
Felicia for more outpouring of his Holy Spirit, for more specific direction on who I can pray for, pray with, etc.... When she finished, I felt like God was giving me a green light to seek out a position with our Prophetic Ministry team. This is something I have wanted to be involved
in for a many years, but dealt with doubt, "dry seasons" and wondering if I could truly contribute, deception that my life was too busy or my past too messy for this role.
Between our blessed community group and what I experienced and received on that Worship Night, I feel like God is with me always. That doesn't mean life is now perfect, I still mess up and I still fall short some days, but I have a theory. My old youth pastor once said, "God might decide to show you the plan he has for your life, but it's been my experience that He will light one step at a time. He does this so he can teach you and test you to be certain you are ready to proceed to the next step." I looked at this like levels in a video game. (It's a stretch, I know, but one I could relate to as a kid.) This was one way that I could continue to be thankful and prayerful to God in
the midst of trials and testing. I want to make sure I continue to listen, that I'm prayerful and learning what God needs me to learn to further "beef up" my arsenal against the enemy. My fight
keeps getting bigger, therefore God continues to provide heftier lessons that prepare me for the battles.